I want to complete stuff. Like playing the guitar. Like playing this song. I've always felt stuff. But feeling doesn't fill space, doesn't give back, doesn't add anything to my person. In my twenties, I've felt a lot: rage, uncertainty, joy, inspiration. Perhaps in my coming thirties, I can finish those feelings, come to the logical end of what I started in my twenties, create stuff, be more than inspired, do more than just react.
Maybe I'll take guitar lessons. Not maybe - I'll look into lessons.
I love the feeling of being inspired. But I've never really inspired myself.